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Tuesday, August 8th, 2006
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10:08 pm
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wow it's really been a long time! sorry about that
sooo lets see... a lot of stuff has happened, so i will make a re-cap list for easy reading
1.Maggie and i are ALMOST completely moved into the apartment. it is very amazing and you all have to come see it.
2.I'm almost done with my 2nd job... it seems like i just can't get rid of it, but i'm trying
3.I start school at Stonehill August 29th. still majoring in biology- still planning on going to veterinary school
4.just got back from another wedding in OH, then a week vacation in SC... this deserves it's own entry, which i will try and do this week
5.i want a puppy
6. i need a new car
ok i'm getting sleepy and i can't think of what else to write. looking back i realize not much has happened. hopefully i will remember more things soon
current mood:  sleepy
current music: watching futurama
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| Sunday, May 28th, 2006
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4:08 pm
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hello again!
so WE GOT THE APARTMENT! WOO!!
i'm crazy excited. and all the shopping! oh man it's like a drug.
we've decided to do a spring/flowery/bright theme in the living room, a cute food themed kitchen, a pink and yellow themed downstairs bathroom, and a green/blue themed upstairs bathroom. yes, we have TWO floors.
i've decided to make my room a beach theme. i'm pretty psyched i must say.
Aside from that amazing accomplishment, i have been working like a dog. victoria, the little mentally disabled girl who i take care of, basically broke my nose. i was sitting with her on my lap when she started sliding off, and as i was pulling her back up, she whipped her head back and got me right in the middle of my nose. i know it was an accident, but it's still all black and makes me look like a clown. meh, whatever i'm only working there for 2 more months anyways.
and i had mentioned, i was accepted into Stonehill and am planning my course schedule for this fall. i'm pretty positive i'm going to major in biology (not sure if anything specific, but still looking to veterinary medicine) and minor in computer science. i figure, even if it takes me a while to get into grad school, i can always use my minor to get a temporary job as a computer tech or something. I'm still working at the insurance agency though.. and will probably work there all through school.
anyways, i'm extremely excited for this summer. in about 2 weeks i am flying back to Cincinnati, OH for my childhood best friend's wedding. I seriously cannot wait to go back and see everyone! THEN, i'm flying back to Cincinnati AGAIN at the end of july for ANOTHER one of my childhood friend's wedding. Back in OH, Abby, Nat and i were best buddies for the whole 4 years i lived there. Strangely enough, both of them decided to get married within a month of each other.
OK, so after the second wedding (which maggie might accompany me to) i'm flying to South Carolina to Litchfield beach for our family reunion. This is seriously one of my favorite places in the world. Hopefully, maggie is gonna come with me, but if she doesn't that means she got a summer camp job, so that would be good too.
Alright i've prattled on enough. time to go take a quick nap and then go to Wal-Mart with maggie.
au revoir!
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| Sunday, May 14th, 2006
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6:58 pm
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hey again
sorry i know it's been a while. i hate how busy i am now.
i'm just tired of the working life. i can't wait to go back to school and make new friends. i feel kinda empty cause most of my friends have moved or are still going to school. don't get me wrong, i like talking to people online, but i also loathe the internet. talking to people online is ridiculous sometimes. it's so cold and frustrating. there is so much room for interpretation... for misunderstandings. honestly, there is way too much online drama. it's great that some people can come out of their shells online. but people act differently than in person... treating others with less respect... thinking they can do or say whatever they want because it's just "typing". honestly, would you say half the things you say online in person?
if you say no, then you need to re-evaluate your "online persona".
ok i'm done ranting. i think i'm just depressed cause this weekend sucked. i did absolutely nothing. that's good sometimes, but for 3 whole days it gets old VERY fast.
alright now i can't write anymore cause i've depressed myself even further.
damn hurry up august.
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| Monday, April 10th, 2006
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2:10 am
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Hey, so it's been a crazy long time. Yes, I went to Rome. It was beautiful. i now actually want to learn roman art and history. plus, i'm gonna take a couple italian classes. i promise i will upload pictures soon! i took an ass-load of them hahah.
Anyways, i will have a whole update devoted to rome later on. This is just a quick entry.
Here are some major things that are happening in my life:
1. Got a 3rd job working as a Personal Care Assistant for a mentally disabled girl named Victoria- i've seriously been putting in soo many hours there, but it's good cause i'm making more money.
2. I finally applied to Stonehill last weekend. i'm crossing my fingers that i get in, but even if i don't, i'm just gonna commute to BU
3. Maggie and i are going to see Death Cab for Cutie/Franz Ferdinand on wednesday! (seriously very excited)
4. Maggie and i are getting an apartment together for the fall (CRAZY excited)--we might even get a pet of our own!
5. I played bingo at a jewish temple and am now hooked
6. I am getting a new car... probably an SUV of some sort cause my parents want me to have 4 wheel drive (of course they wait till AFTER winter, but hey what can you do)
7. Eggburt has diabetes! he had been having trouble walking, but now that he's on insulin he's doing a ton better. He's actually lost a lot of weight! down to 20lbs i think... but he still looks massive. i really think he is just a very large cat structurally.
hmmmm i can't think of anything else at the moment. so i will update more later on, but that should hold you all for now haha.
damn my tooth really hurts... i think i have a big cavity.... damnit.
hope everyone had a nice spring vacation!
talk to you all soon
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| Monday, February 20th, 2006
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8:14 pm
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blah it's so weird. some days i'll just have bouts of anger. like, a situation that i've put behind me or people that i'm done with... all of a sudden something will trigger my memory about them and all the anger comes flooding back. maybe i just can't let things go. then again, maybe some things are bad enough that you're not really supposed to let them go completely.... meh who knows.
anyways, i'm SO CRAZY EXCITED for Rome!!!! it's getting closer and closer, so it's becoming more and more real..... ooooooh i'm so psyched. i've been reading all these Rome travel guides and learning bits of italian, so maybe i'll be able to speak it a bit. Now it looks like we're visiting Florence and Venice too!!! I get to go on a gondala!!!!
i will be sure to bring back gifts heheh.
unfortunately, i was an idiot and lent a lot of money out to multiple people, so i'm trying to get it back before Rome. i really don't have any money and i'm late on my creditcard payments :0\. i might have to ask my dad for a loan, but i don't wanna do that. so i'm just gonna try and get my money back from people and work extra hard over the next few weeks.
alrighty i'm gonna go play some video games and watch the olympics. am i the only one who gets annoyed by sasha cohen?? in an interview she said how she wished michelle kwan would retire so she could give someone else a turn. i dunno... i mean, i think that's kinda rude.
hahah ok ok i'm going. ta ta!
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| Tuesday, January 31st, 2006
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9:03 pm
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hmmm update...
it's hard to update. cause every day i feel differently.
well lets see
March 10th is fast approaching!!! I am SOOOOO psyched to go to Italy with my pickle woo. i went to her house for Chinese New Year this year and it was wicked fun. i got to make eggrolls (yeah, they were kinda messed up, but at least i tried hehe)
i've also been starting to learn italian- hope i don't sound too much like a fool heheh
other than that, i've been working a lot. trying to build some new friendships and solidify old, good ones.
oooo yeah and we got this new angelfish in our fishtank to keep the old one company, and now they love each other! it's so adorable to see them swimming together- they're inseparable! i love when they swim because they look like they're dancing.
anyways... now i have writers block. can't think of anything else to say.
i'm watching the state of the union and all i can think is that bush is so cute! i love those ears. hahaha i know i'm weird.
anyways, i gotta go pet tigger who is trying to eat the cursor on the screen while i type.
hope everyone had a nice january, 2006!
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| Sunday, January 22nd, 2006
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10:14 pm
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R.E.S.P.O.N.S.I.B.I.L.I.T.Y
n 1: the social force that binds you to your obligations and the courses of action demanded by that force; "every right implies a responsibility; every opportunity, an obligation; every possession, a duty"- John D.Rockefeller Jr [syn: duty, obligation] 2: the proper sphere or extent of your activities; "it was his province to take care of himself" [syn: province] 3: a form of trustworthiness; the trait of being answerable to someone for something or being responsible for one's conduct; "he holds a position of great responsibility" [syn: responsibleness] [ant: irresponsibility]
strange how so many people don't understand what this word means.
here are some ways to apply this to the real world:
1. Don't buy something if you don't have money. I.O.U.'s ARE NOT REALLY MONEY
2. Don't buy something if you don't have the means to take care of it (i.e. a pet, car, etc.)
3. Don't get shitfaced and just assume someone will take care of you
4. Don't drive while under ANY influence-no matter how "small"- the fact that you are willing to put OTHER lives in danger is not only irresponsible, it's stupid
5. DO think about the future and what you are going to do with your life.
6. Don't try and weasel out of something you did wrong but convincing the other party it was their fault-- just admit you were wrong and stop making that person feel bad for YOUR mistakes.
7. Don't try and bend everything so it goes your way-- you can't have everything you want, so SUCK IT UP once in a while.
8. DO take the responsibility to think about others once in a while (especially friends)
9. DO try and do something nice for someone- something with absolutely no self-gain
10. Try not to kill too many braincells before you're 25.
ok, i hope that helps.
i'm really tired physically and mentally, so i'm probably going to bed now. hope everyone is having a nice January.
current mood: drained
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| Sunday, January 1st, 2006
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3:08 am
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i'm sorry i havent updated in a while.
christmas was fun- got a lot of good presents and gave a lot of good presents :o) (honestly, seeing people open theirs is more fun to me now... strange how things change when you get older)
new years eve was tonight. i had a mellow, but nice time with maggie, pat, sarah, and lauren.
-we watched anchorman and old school (two awesome movies hehe).
-i discovered that champagne makes my face turn all red!
-we watched a VERY VERY old Dick Clark and felt bad for him cause he was so old (come to think of it, he reminded me of Blue from old school...)
-could not find a pizza place that was open.... it was pretty funny too cause when i tried Union Villa pizza around 9pm--- this was the conversation----
guy: "Union Villa"
me : "Hey are you guys still open?"
guy: "no we closed at 7"
me : "literally?"
guy: "um, yes"
i mean, i thought he was being sarcastic because i had asked a stupid question! hahaha it was still really funny though :oP
anyways, i had a good time. i also came to some realizations about my life and what i enjoy/what i don't enjoy and which people actually like me for me. i've been thinking recently that certain people only like me for my stuff/money/booze, and tonight i realized that it is true to an extent. some people in college don't want to have ANY sort of attachments/loyalty to anyone- they just want to get drunk, screw, and party. which is fine for those people. they can do what they want. i'm just not that kind of person, so i can't be best friends with people who are that way because i will just constantly get let down. so i need to take care of my self and be more careful about who i get attached to as best friends. i really think this is a good realization for me... i'm happy i discovered one more piece of myself :o)
ok time for bed. i hope everyone had a happy (and safe) new years/christmas/chanukkah etc. and i will talk to you all in 2006!
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| Sunday, December 18th, 2005
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9:08 pm
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the Christmas party was yesterday
all in all, it actually went pretty well.. other than a couple people who were scary, the rest were cool.
i'm still really disappointed today though. i guess i expected my friends to consider my feelings a little more than they did. people make mistakes, and i completely understand that... but if i'm upset about something, it's something legit... i'm not just bitching. i don't think they understood why i was so upset. i felt like they were just treating me like an overreacting PMS-y female... which made it all the worse. it hurts when you feel like your best friends don't consider your feelings when planning things... sometimes you feel like they don't take you seriously.
i'm over the situation... just reflecting.
anyways, thank you to all who attended the party and made it a great sha-bang. i will give details later.. but i'm too damned tired to update anymore.
i do want to say that life (people) can be horrible-- Pete, i love you and am here for you sweetheart-- which makes me depressed because i feel helpless... i can't believe what some people can do to their "loved ones".
time to drink some tea.
CHRISTMAS IN 6 DAYS!!
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| Thursday, December 15th, 2005
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1:29 am - Future Husband...
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I am going to marry this man.
He is SUCH a good piano player it's not even funny... plus he's drop dead gorgeous.....
that is all
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| Monday, December 12th, 2005
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8:45 pm
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ok i promised pete i would update, so here it is!
again nothing huge has happened. Maggie and i went to the lighting of the rockery.
-for those not in Easton, there is a landmark in Easton called "the rockery" which is covered with christmas lights every year. this along with a TON of decorative christmas displays are ceremoniously "lighted" or turned on every year.
well i read in the Easton Journal that the lighting was supposed to be at 7pm, but when we got there at 6:30, everyone was packing up and leaving! apparently the lighting had been at 6 :o(... jackasses.
so we rented a movie (garden state which is amazing) and hot tubbed.
other than that, i've been working and hanging out with lance and jimbo a few times.
i gotta say that hot tubbing in the winter is crazy good.
Anyways, the christmas party is THIS COMING SATURDAY!! i'm so psyched. we're gonna have soo much fun.
Lance and i went to get soda at Shaws cause the six packs waere 3 for 1.. so we got 12 six packs... but of course when we went to go check out, the guy was like "oh yeah, there's a limit, so the deal only applies to 1 pack of soda (so we got 2 for free), but that was it! it was CRAAZY misleading. anyways, we have a plan so it should work out haha
alrighty, i'm getting sleepy so i'm gonna go hop into bed and read for a while
hope everyone is well
current mood: sleepy
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| Wednesday, November 30th, 2005
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11:29 pm - fa lalalala, lala la la
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hey again. like the new layout? i figured i should change it with the season. i just wish i knew how to make the background image ONE image instead of the same image repeated over and over.
not much is new. i'm so pumped for Christmas this year! i think it's cause i got such great deals on my gifts that i'm excited to give them :oP. i've been crazy busy though. it's kinda frustrating cause my family wants me to do everything for them. they think my job isn't as important as theirs, so i'm the one who has to take time out of work to do errands and do them favors etc. sometimes i don't get home until late (like today) and i don't have time (or am just exhausted) so i don't do the crazy important errands and wait till the next day. today i was supposed to return movies to Hollywood video (which were already a week late anyways cause my sister kept wanting to watch them) but i got out of work kinda late and with the rain i didn't want to drive down to south easton.. especially during rush hour. so tonight she's acting all pissed at me cause "i didn't do what she told me to do". i really need to get out of this house. seriously. i'm going to stonehill probably in the summer, so if anyone is reading this (and they go to school locally) and they want to get an apartment with someone, i will SOOO get one with you. even if we're not close friends, that's cool with me. i'm a good roommate (my freshman roommate will vouch for me). i need to get my own place, but closer to easton and not in boston. hahah i know, i already had my own place before, but it was $1800 a month and too far away from home.
ok now that i've plead for a roommate, i think i'm gonna go drink some diet coke and watch family guy. i'm subbing tomorrow so i have to get up crazy early to be there on time. last time i wasn't on time and they were pissed at me. my mom said that it "ruined my reputation" which kinda pisses me off.
OOH yeah, don't buy from UGG's online store cause i ordered stuff a month ago and i got only half of the order, so then i called and the guy was like "yeah, we're out of stock on those things so you're just not gonna get them. People put in too many orders at the exact same time and we can't fill them all" (he was an ass... didn't apologize or anything... made it seem like it was my fault or something). Not only did i call a week ago and the SAME guy told me i would get them, but just not at the same time, BUT TWO DAYS after i had ordered my stuff, my co-worker ordered the EXACT SAME STUFF and received it ALL within the week. how craptastic is that?? i mean, if it was really "everyone ordered at the same time", then logically she shouldn't have gotten the stuff either, right???!.... bastards.
so i'm trying to improvise for some of your presents. blame it on UGG if you don't like them hahaha.
time for family guy. bye now
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| Saturday, November 26th, 2005
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10:55 pm - heloo again
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well well well
It’s been a few days and I apologize... just been pretty busy.
First of all, I love thanksgiving. To me, it's the start of the Christmas season and it gives you that warm fuzzy feeling :0)
Anyways... let me start off with last Friday if I may...
I must say, it was a great night because Maggie and I went to see Blue Man Group for her birthday celebration.
so of course I’m running a tad bit late when she gets there---due to the fact that I CLEANED and SCRUBBED my car (I’m so proud)--- so we leave like 15 minutes later than we had planned. Then there is traffic on the highway. Luckily, we still get into Boston around 5:30 so we could go eat dinner.
Went to Uno's, I talked Maggie's ear off, we ate, then left around 6:30.
We then drove to the Charles Playhouse (got there pretty easily I must say). parked at a parking meter (more on that later) and got into our 4th row seats. Poor Maggie’s poncho was ripped, so she swiped the one in front of us (we stole the ponchos after the show hehe). Tons of people were trashed, but the coolest thing happened… we got to see a guy publicly propose to his girlfriend! It was so adorable. It gave me all those warm fuzzy feelings :-P… she said yes of course, cause what girl declines a public proposal??
Anyways, the show was funny. I had seen it like, 4 years ago and it was pretty much the same. One fun thing was that one of the blue men was stepping on the arms of the seats to walk to the middle of the room, and he stepped right between Maggie and I and stayed there for a couple minutes. After the show Maggie told me the guy was actually stepping on her shoulder, not the armrest hahahah. At the end we both got a t-shirt and saw all three blue-men walking up the stairs (they tried to stay in character).
After we left, I found a friggin $40 parking ticket on my windshield L. Not cool. Apparently there was a “no parking between 5 and 10” sign waaaaay up in the tree. I missed it completely. Bastards. Then we came back to my house and watched “the sisterhood of the traveling pants”. It was a good movie except for one of the “mini-stories”. The story about the blonde-super-sexy-seventeen-year-old-who-gets-the-hot-sweet-sensitive-college-guy just didn’t appeal to me. Ooooh and Eggbert slept on Maggie! It was amazing. He kept farting on her.
Anyways, the next day I hung out with the other 2 amigos (jimbo and lance). We went hot-tubbing and I got kinda drunk and all touchy-feely and stuff. It was funny.
Thanksgiving was awesome. My next door neighbors came over and we had a good time. Their kids are like my brothers and sister. We played halo 2 for a couple hours and it was so fun. Then, on Friday my family had another turkey dinner cause the turkey on thanksgiving was kinda crappy.
Another big thing was that I got to talk to Brian Greer for the first time in forever. I’ve really missed talking to him I must say. He really brings my faith in God back to life…. Plus he makes me feel sooo comfy and safe. I am positive I am going to keep in touch with him cause he really is a true friend J.
Not much else has happened. Hot-tubbed with jimbo, lance, and jeff v. Friday night. Made a pumpkin pie and appetizers that were awesome. Finally learned how to make a piecrust. Ummmm… and that’s it for now!
Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving!
current mood: cheerful
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| Thursday, November 17th, 2005
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12:28 am - survey from kait b.
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THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1) Carly
2) Carz
3) Miss Van Zandt (by students)
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1) Nymph22059
2) Kiwivz182
3) Buildingnewsails
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1) eyes
2) legs
3) toes?
THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1) stomach
2) arms
3) wrists
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1) ghosts/the thought of ghosts
2) when i'm scared and it's pitch black
3) the thought of accidentally hurting any of my animals
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1) internet
2) adult swim
3) books
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1) hot topic T-shirt reading "Trust Me, I'm a Doctor"
2) light blue panties
3) chinese necklace
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS/ARTISTS:
1) Coldplay
2) Death Cab for Cutie
3) Jimmy Eat World
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1) going to Rome!
2) being a teacher
3) make enough money to start saving for my own place someday
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1) Passion
2) Loyalty
3) Being completely comfortable with each other
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1) I was born in NJ
2) I like Peanut Butter
3) I've always wanted to get my tongue pierced
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE (OR SAME) SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1) eyes
2) mouth
3) arms
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN’T DO:
1) hit a ball with a bat
2) run (i was born with my knees turned in so my legs don't run right haha)
3) hurt an animal
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1) hot tubbing/going out/drinking with friends
2) playing pool
3) playing video/computer games
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW:
1) umm.. no comment
2) win the lottery (i agree with kait)
3) cuddle maximus :oP
THREE CAREERS YOU ARE CONSIDERING:
1) veterinarian/vet tech
2) high school/junior high science teacher
3) research biologist
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1) New Zealand
2) Scotland
3) Litchfield beach, SC
THREE KID’S NAMES:
1) Iris
2) Peter
3) Jonathan
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1) find my soulmate
2) make a difference in someone's life
3) help the world in some way
THREE PEOPLE YOU ARE TAGGING NOW:
..umm tagging? ok well i'm just gonna pick
1) Jimmy B.
2) michelle
3) pooky
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| Wednesday, November 16th, 2005
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9:41 pm
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hey hey hey
sorry for the depressing entry last time :oP
yeah a lot has happened in the past week 1/2.
First, there was a gas leak at the KinderCare in Easton on monday. Now, my work isn't next door to it, but we're pretty close to it. The ironic thing was, our gas heat hadn't been working for a couple days (we had just found out this morning) so we thought the gas smell was coming from OUR building! by then we're all freaking out and we leave the building to stand out in back. we didn't want to start any of our cars so we didn't blow the place up with our car ignition spark. so we wait for 30 minutes until the gas company guy comes to take a look at it. he ends up telling us that there is a gas main that broke at the kinder care, and the gas we were smelling was from all the way over there (and it was STRONG so i was amazed how it had traveled). The problem with our system had been a broken emergency switch which had shut the whole system off accidentally. needless to say, it was the most excitement our office has seen in a while.
Then i got breakfast with lance on tuesday
Saturday, i traveled with lance to the airport to pick up MAXIMUS THE AMAZING PUPPY!! i seriously love this puppy.
anyways, we got there really easily and after finding out where to go, got to the right place an hour early.
so for an hour we drank coffee and read People magazine, then we got bored and went down to the baggage claim office where the puppy was supposed to go. The plane came in and we saw them bring his cage into the baggage claim. The poor baby was crying :0( so they let us in to look at him, but when i tried to open the cage and make him feel better, this lady in big boots yelled at me hahaha. SOOOO we went back to the office and the lady came down with stuff for us to sign. Then we finally got him to the car and got him out. I LOOOOOVE HIM!!! he is SUCH a good puppy. seriously, he's so well behaved it's amazing. We took him around and showed him off, got him a new collar and puppy treats, then showed him to my family.
anyways, i love him. i can't think of anything else that happened cause the image of the cutest puppy in the world keeps popping up :oP
ok time to go watch tv and pay bills.
goodnight all
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| Sunday, November 13th, 2005
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11:16 pm
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hello again
i'm kinda depressed tonight. stuff that i try to forget sometimes comes back to haunt me and make me feel shitty for a while. i hate when this happens cause i overreact to stupid things. every time i feel this way, i get this horrible sinking feeling that everyone is pretending to be my friend. that people just hang out with me cause i make them feel better about themselves, not cause they like me or enjoy my company. they can't have me in a group cause i'm too embarrassing as a friend. i'm easily forgotten when a more attractive girl comes around, etc. etc.
again, i hate when i feel this way.
and stupid things instigate me. like, me doing something big for someone, and they say thank you and everything, but then they forget. other friends who aren't as good/loyal take priority because they're more fun and attractive.
low self-confidence is such a catch 22. you feel it, but if you show it, people don't like you. you need to do something about it, but if you confront it with anyone, it makes them uncomfortable. you feel like you have to make an excuse for how you look because otherwise people will just assume you're "one of those people" who is comfortable in their bad health/looks.
then you think about stupid things in the past that make you pissed off, but you can't do anything about it now, so you get depressed about it.
there was probably a ton that happened this week, but i can't really think of anything. i'll write another entry tomorrow that's more informative and less complaining.
it's hard to live in this country and not consider plastic surgery at one point.
current mood: depressed
current music: death cab for cutie
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| Thursday, November 10th, 2005
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12:49 am
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OK i promised a 2nd birthday update and here it is!
hmmm lets see... i left off after we all passed out during the exorcist....
- my sleep was really fitful due to the effects of weed. like, i was so confused in my dream because i never knew exactly what was going on. then, because i felt a lack of control over my mind, i dreamt that i was in a very enclosed elevator (like, all sides touching me) which started to fall and there was nothing i could do (hence, the lack-of-control sensation).
around 9am, michelle left because she had a ton of work to get done. jimmy and i passed out again and slept till 12. At that time, we hear the phone saying "are you there? are you there? are you there?"... yeah that freaked us out. it was the phone setting, so instead of a ring it would say "are you there?"
anyways, it was the concierge desk saying the massage people were on their way up (i was really confused cause i though we had rescheduled to 3pm, but i guess they never got the memo)
so jimmy and i fall out of bed and i try to clean up a little cause it was a pig sty. jimmy took a man shower and the two ladies with their tables appeared. they were wicked nice. anyways, they set up the two tables while i called the other people supposedly coming back (michelle, christine, and maggie, who was coming up with my mom) to check to see if they would be there in time. it worked out perfectly cause each massage was 50 minutes which allowed them plenty of time to get there while jimmy and i got our massages. the lady i had was really nice, but she pushed SOOOO hard... like i have bruises from her. i think the same thing happened with maggie (the only other person to have her) and i felt bad cause i wanted maggie to have a good first-professional-massage-experience :o(. oh well, i'll take her to get acupuncture one of these days cause i think that is better than a massage.
after everyone was done getting massaged, we were all blobs of jello. michelle had fallen asleep, i was melted into the bed along with maggie and jimmy, and christine was getting dressed. i decided to take a shower cause i was gross and felt bad again cause i was in the bathroom while the second lady left so i didn't tip her (christine tipped her a few bucks, but i gave the other lady $10)
by the time everyone was done and ready, it was around 2:30 and we were all STARVING. OH YEAH and it was a friggin BLIZZARD outside!!! the day i was hoping to walk around the city a little, maybe do some shopping, get our nails/feet done, etc., it's like christmas without the presents and lights. we ended up at bertuccis and i ate like 10 rolls and 5 boxes of tortellini (i got shrimp tortellini with a butter/garlic sauce and it was AMAZING). after we were all stuffed turkeys, i wanted to go to the BU barns and noble to get a coat and pajama pants. i found an awesome coat, pajama pants (that ended up not fitting, but oh well), and a really cool new wallet (cause my poor wallet was ripped to shreds). ok, i know, i'm gonna sound like a delinquent, but i think i ACCIDENTALLY stole the wallet. you see, i was carrying SO many things, i found the wallet and was all excited, and naturally i just put it in my purse to carry it like i would normally carry my wallet. no one noticed my stupidity and when i got back to the hotel, i found the wallet in my purse and not charged on the receipt. i know, i'm going to hell. but STARBUCKS is going right along with me cause the whole morning all i wanted was a hot apple cider with caramel from starbucks. of course, once we get to the one at B&N, they said they accidentally had "frozen" the syrup so they didn't have any. (which is bull by the way cause i got one later that night and the guy was like, "ok, well they lied cause we don't even have a freezer"... bastards)
after leaving B&N, we braved the blizzard and headed back to the hotel (an amazing 100 foot journey) while christine headed back to simmonds cause of a million page paper due for her chem class. (i swear, every professor on this planet assigned 20 page papers and huge exams during/right after my b-day weekend.... also bastards)
we actually made a pit stop to store 24 where we bought a ton of snacks again.
once we made it back to the hotel frozen alive, we decided to order a couple movies (major league, and pirates of the caribbean). oh yeah, and they bring the movies up in a gift bag w/ tissue paper AND they give you snacks with it (we got 3 huge Reeces bars and even though i don't like peanut butter, i was excited). Before we started the movies, we ended up watching T.V. for a while. michelle and i passed out while maggie chilled and i think jimmy read/studied. it was the best hour nap i've ever had-
*sidenote* every time i fell asleep during the weekend, i snored like a dying boar, so i must make a quick heartfelt apology to all those having to endure my rude and inconsiderate nose *end sidenote*
After i awoke from my graceful sleep, maggie informed me that she was dying of hunger, but of none of the rest of us were hungry cause we stuffed ourselves before (maggie was trying to eat light because she had a stomach bug for the last week and a half). so maggie, jimmy, and i decided to go to Shaws and get candy/cards for candy poker, champagne, and cheese. yes, the three most random things ever. plus, i wanted to show them the amazing feature of the packard's corner shaws--- it has the coolest conveyor belt where they put your groceries into tubs, send it down the belt, and you drive your car around to the "pick up" place next to the parking lot where they find your tub and load your groceries into your car. i just think that is incredible.
anyways, we got there and got cheese, cards (even though they were hording them at the customer service desk), candy, and my hot apple cider finally. unfortunately, we only had a few things, so we just carried our items out instead of utilizing the conveyor belt, but by God i would've done it in a second if we were just a TAD lazier.
then we decided to go on a hunt for booze. we ended up at this awesome discount liquor store in Allston (apparently the cheapest kegs in boston). jimmy and i went in while maggie guarded the mini-van. we found some awesome champagne and the best deal of getting 2 bottles of yellow-tail wine for $12. (i got some cabernet sauvignon for mommy) and jimmy got some heineken too.
after we left, jimmy walks back up to me and goes "maggie's gone!"
so of course the first thing that pops into my mind is "oh my God maggie's been kidnapped/carjacked/drugged/shot/molested/etc." and then jimmy the rational one said "she must've moved it" which made me feel like an idiot cause for some reason i think no one is physically capable of driving the mini-van except me. so we start walking up and down the sidewalk looking for her, thinking she was just driving around cause there were no parking spots. finally, after like 5 minutes, we decided to walk down a little further to where we left the van in the first place, and we find maggie had simply parked it in the spot next to where we left her. (apparently it was good we had come then cause some sketchy guys were chekin out maggie and plotting to steal the amazing mini-van)
we then departed and threw jimmy out of the van to pick up menus from Uno's (he skillfully made it back into the van in the middle of traffic). we returned to the hotel, ordered take out from uno's (maggie got the coolest mini-shaped chicken tenders but i forget their name!) drank some champagne (maggie had her sprite zero and i love her for it) and again stuffed myself to the bursting point. one amazing thing though was that we called down to room service for some ketchup/silverwear and they gave us the CUTEST mini ketchup bottles (both maggie and i brought one home) they were like the illegitimate/alienated love children of the adult ketchup bottles thrust into the foster care of the Hotel Commonwealth kitchen staff...
at this point we were watching madtv (hysterically funny with the FUNNIEST/worst guest band ever) and SNL (not as funny... kinda dumb in some parts, but it had lance armstrong and sheryl crowe so it was ok)
we tried to play some candy poker, but i really don't think we were into it (we bombed at texas hold-em, then maggie was cleaning up at 5-card, so we resorted to blackjack in which maggie again kicked our asses) after which we kinda gave up and ate the candy while watching major league.
jimmy was a stoner and took a couple more hits in the bathroom after the movie, maggie was trying to sleep, but the tv was too loud (again, i felt bad cause i thought she was asleep but in fact we were keeping her up). finally, we all get comfy in bed and pass out while watching pirates of the caribbean (ironically, it was on tv a couple nights afterwards which was cool for me cause i hadn't seen it in a while). i don't think maggie or i slept well that night cause it got really hot in the room. of course, after our alarm went off and we slept for another hour, that sleep was amazing although it was cut short haha.
michelle left at 9 again and we got our lazy asses up at 11. while maggie cleansed herself and jimmy avoided the waking world, i picked up our massive disordered room a bit and wrote a note/gave the housekeeping staff a tip (after which i realized i didn't tip any of the room service people, causing me to feel like the biggest jackass... until i realized they charged us $30 for a cup of coffee and a cup of hot chocolate, then i didn't feel bad anymore.... more bastards)
so we packed up, admired the room one last time, and headed out to find the most amazing weather i have ever seen in fall. oooo i also had ordered a bathrobe from the hotel and they're sending it to me (i needed a keepsake other than the shampoo and baby ketchup bottles).
we got the van, tipped the valet (i felt bad -for the last time- because this valet wasn't the same one who had painstakingly maneuvered the van into city traffic TWICE the day before and i had forgotten to tip him too.... it's actually really hard to tell who to tip and who not to tip... so you should probably just tip everyone who does anything for you just to be safe)
to make a long story even longer, i dropped off the wonderful/pensive jimmy and the lovable klepto michelle back to their respective dwellings and drove back to easton with maggie. we stopped at stonebridge to stuff our faces cause we were starving, and then i dropped her at her easton house and i dropped myself off at my house where i left everything in the car and crashed in my bed where i slept for a long period of time and was content with life.
all in all, i think it was a pretty memorable/effectively relaxing experience. thank you to all who participated and made my weekend, cause without you guys, it would've sucked ass.
thank you to jimmy p., lance, erika, bridget, maggie, and christine for their birthday presents (and the sex on the beach from erika). thank you jimmy b. for letting me use all your booze/weed, and thank you michelle for taking my virginity/drinking tequila shots with me.
i will post tomorrow cause a bunch of fun stuff happened, but i wanted to finish my excursion entry first.
Stay classy San Diego.
current mood: complacent
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| Saturday, November 5th, 2005
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8:39 pm
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Hey I'm alive!!
after being bed-ridden for a week, i can finally move!
bah i hate the flu.
Anyways, i know it's a week late, but i need to update about my wonderful birthday bash weekend.
First, i must rewind to really early last Friday morning (Oct. 28th). My poor next door neighbor Patrick had to get his appendix out at 12am, so my mom and i spent the night at their house babysitting the other two kids while the parents stayed at the hospital. Friday was kinda a busy day for me already (i was getting ready for the party), but then it got even crazier because i had to take the two kids to and from school/hockey practice/friend's house. Inbetween all this, i only got one thing done when i wanted to get like, 5 things done. So i didn't get home until 5:30pm with no wash done, no hair/makeup done, and people coming at 6pm. I ended up making everyone late and we didn't leave until 7:30. I took Jimbo in the van while Lance and Erika took the jeep. Of course we hit some traffic on the way there and didn't get into boston till about 8:15.
This was the really hectic part. It turned out that Erika had a bouncer friend who said he could get us all into a bar, but we had to be there before 11pm. Everyone was starving so i decided we should just park at fanieul (sp?) hall and get dinner before driving back to the hotel to check in, and THEN going back to the bar. Lance and Erika went to find a parking spot while I picked up Jimmy B. and dropped off Jimbo who was going to meet lance/erika. THEN Jimmy B. and I tried to find Christine's apartment and ended up getting lost in north boston. So, Christine jumped onto the T while we picked up Michelle, and then we parked on Cambridge St., met Christine at the Government Center T-stop, and finally made it to the restaurant at around 9. Honestly, I think the restaurant was my favorite "goup" gathering. I had a ton of fun talking/catching up with people and introducing everyone. The people at the restaurant didn't card anyone (which was lucky cause like a goober i had left my wallet in the van) so we had some drinks (erika had already started on a few hahaha) and just had some great conversation.
The restaurant was a seafood place (crazy expensive, but good) and i splurged and got the Alaskan King Crab. i swear that crab hated me and was determined for me to go hungry because i had the worst time getting it open, but i eventually conquered it and savored the spoils of war.
So around 10:45, Christine, Jimmy B., Michelle and I were gonna take my car to the hotel, check in, then take a cab back to the bar (i'm not a fan of drunk driving). So, once we checked into the hotel and got into the room, we called Erika, but unfortunately she couldn't get us all into the club, so her Jimbo and Lance ended up going in for a few drinks while we stayed at the hotel.
Ok, the hotel:
INCREDIBLY amazing. SOO beautiful! The room was huge, the beds were sooo comfy, the bathroom was incredible, etc. etc. BUT i will go more into the beauty of the place in my next entry.
Anyways, Christine ended up taking the T back to her place while me, Jimmy, and Michelle waited for the others to get back. Once they did, Michelle, Erika and I went down to the club on the first floor of the hotel called "The Foundation". I must admit, i thought it was pretty cool.
So this club was an excursion in itself i must say. We walk in, and the FIRST guys Erkia sees start to hit on her (very drunk lawyers). So she mentions it's my 21st birthday (which it really wasn't, but it was my 21st birthday CELEBRATION so that still counts) and they all go nuts and start to buy us drinks. The one guy that was hitting on me was so incredibly drunk he was cross-eyed. i personally thought it was hysterical. While the guys were buying us shots of So. Co. and lime, Erika bought me my first sex on the beach which i downed in like 3 seconds. it was good :0P (yeah i know i could make so many lude sexual jokes right now, but they've all been done before so i wont bore you with the unoriginal) Finally, after this drunk guy finishes telling me his life story, hugging me, and trying to get me to kiss him, they start to leave. Of course one of the guys is in love with Erika and wont leave before he's positive he will talk to her again :0P (i was cracking up cause this guy was asking me and michelle "how can i contact this girl again??") We didn't stay long after that cause the boys were getting restless and kept calling us to come back. I think i had 2 more shots while michelle had one and Erika decided to cut herself off cause she was pretty gone already hehe. Michelle was a klepto and stole shot glasses (later on she tried to get us to con the hotel but we resisted her temptuous ways!! :0P) and that was our event at The Foundation.
OK, by now the boys were angry cause we were gone for a long time, so we met them at Store 24 to get snacks and drink-mixing ingredients. We get there to find lance picking a fight with a hobo... this was hysterical cause erika started running up to lance and then the hobo started yelling and she ran behind michelle and i and pretended to be invisible hahaha. We bought a ton of stuff at the store and then made it back to the amazing hotel where we took more shots and had drunken joy. Around 1 or 2am, lance (who had only had 3 drinks the whole night) drove erika and jimbo home cause erika had to get up early the next day.
Then, jimmy b. and michelle FORCED me to smoke my first weed (hehe, ok so i wanted to try it) It was so shady cause we went behind the hotel and smoked in front of this dumpster with rats and gross smelling things. Needless to say, i was very high. apparently, i do not stop talking when i'm high. seriously, my mouth does not stop moving. it was funny how much i talked. jimmy and i got really philosophical while michelle just layed on the bed and stared hahaha. I dont think i'd get high again though.. i didn't like that feeling how you forgot the thing you said 5 seconds before... i really didn't like the lack of control i had over my mind (if that makes sense)
so then we all crashed 5 minutes into the movie the Exorcist.
ANNNDD i've written so much that my hand hurts. so i will continue this tomorrow!
goodnight all
current mood: tired
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| Wednesday, October 26th, 2005
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9:04 pm
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OK, so a week ago, we had a TON of rain and my street flooded... which has NEVER happened before. I thought it was pretty cool, so my dad and I went out and took pictures.
they're really big size wise, so it may take a bit for them to download.
Enjoy!
( So much water... )
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| Sunday, October 23rd, 2005
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11:25 pm
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Hello Hello Hellooooo
yeah its been.... well... forever!
hmmm... whats new whats new... OH yeah, so I've taken a substitute teaching job at Olmstead and Richardson (middle schools). What i didn't realize was that they now have my name listed for all of the easton public schools, so i may be teaching junior high or high school. i've also been thinking about being a junior high/high school science teacher. but again, i have a while before i have to decide my permanent job. for now, i just want to graduate with a major in biology, and a minor in animal behavior. and yes, i think it's pretty official that i'm transferring to Stonehill. it apparently has a really good Bio program! which honestly, i had NO idea about. i always think of it as a teaching school.
Anyways, my belated-birthday party is coming up!!!! i'm SOOOO excited! i know it's going to be a blast. it's at the hotel commonwealth in boston... verrrry ritzy!
i'm hoping to update more often. i guess i just kinda forgot about livejournal
my therapy is going well by the way. i love my new therapist. i think i've said that before, but i forget haha. she's really helped me make a ton of emotional progress. i mean, i think i went back a few steps last week cause i saw an old friend and she kinda tore me apart (not intentionally) and really fed into my fears that people stopped talking to me because they didn't like me (she didn't actually say that, but she wanted me to think that way which is weird). she just couldn't understand what i was going through because throughout her life, she's had to pushaw ay her past and the bad things that are happening to her. the fact that i'm trying to face my past and overcome it is foreign to her. i feel like she sees me as a whiny college student... like one of those people who wants to make problems so they get attention. oh well i know some people are bound not to understand.
ok well i'm going to go watch the world series. i will update more often. Hope everyone in MA stays dry!!
p.s. you guys like my new chipmunk icon? i thought i was amazing. hahah
current mood: cold
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